Merry Christmas!

birthday party pictures!

it was a great time!
thanks to everyone that could make it out in the snow!!

xoxo

yes...i buy shoes...lots and lots of shoes

...and counting...

my first bronco game!

yes it was fun...!
yes it was COLD...! (18 degrees...whateva)
YES WE KICKED BUTT!
GO BRONCOS~~~~
:)


yay and happy birthday to me!
(i think i'm jay's good luck charm!) >wink<

pun-kin pie

my newest creation

I painted this:


this last week for my good friend Josh.

Happy Happy (late) Birthday Friend! :)

time warp

Oh man!!! Cesa and I are STILL laughing.....HAHAHAHA!

"
Last weekend I stumbled upon something AMAZING!
What we found was this:

A JC Penney catalog from 1977. It's not often blog fodder just falls in my lap, but holy hell this was two solid inches of it, right there for the taking. I thumbed through it quickly and found my next dining room set, which is apparently made by adding upholstery to old barrels:

Also, I am totally getting this for my bathroom:

There's plenty more home furnishings where those came from, however I'm not going to bore you with that. Instead, I'm going to bore you with something else. The clothes.

The clothes are fantastic.

Here's how to get made fun of in elementary school:

Just look at that belt. It's like a boob-job for your pants. He probably needed help just to lift it into place. The belt loops have to be three inches long. And way to pull them up to your armpits, grandpa.

Here's how to get made fun of in high school:

This kid looks like he's pretending to be David Soul, who is pretending to be a cop who is pretending to be a pimp that everyone knows is really an undercover cop. Who is pretending to be 15.

Here's how to get made fun of on the golf course:

This "all purpose jumpsuit" is, according to the description, equally appropriate for playing golf or simply relaxing around the house. Personally, I can't see wearing this unless you happen to be relaxing around your cell in D-block. Even then, the only reason you should put this thing on is because the warden made you.

Here's how to get made fun of pretty much anywhere:

If you look at that picture quickly, it looks like Mr. Bob "No-pants" Saget has his hand in the other guy's pocket. In this case, he doesn't, although you can tell just by looking at them that it's happened - or if it hasn't happened it will. Oh yes. It will. As soon as he puts down his matching coffee cup.

Here's how to get made fun of at the beach:

He looks like he's reaching for a gun, but you know it's probably just a bottle of suntan lotion in a holster.

How to get made fun of in a meeting:

If you wear this suit and don't sell used cars for a living, I believe you can be fined and face serious repercussions, up to and including termination. Or imprisonment, in which case you'd be forced to wear that orange jumpsuit.

How to get made fun of on every day up to and including St. Patrick's Day:

Dear God, I don't believe that color exists in nature. There is NO excuse for wearing either of these ensembles unless you're working as a body guard for the Lucky Charms leprechaun.

In this next one, Your Search For VALUE Ends at Penneys.

As does your search for chest hair.

And this -- Seriously. No words.

Oh wait, it turns out that there are words after all. Those words are What. The. %&*#!! I'm guessing the snap front gives you quick access to the chest hair. The little tie must be the pull tab.

Also, judging by the sheer amount of matching his/hers outfits, I'm guessing that in 1977 it was considered pretty stylish for couples to dress alike. These couples look happy, don't they?



I am especially fond of this one, which I have entitled "Cowboy Chachi Loves You Best."


And nothing showcases your everlasting love more than the commitment of matching bathing suits.


Then, after the lovin', you can relax in your one-piece matching terry cloth jumpsuits:


I could go on, but I'm tired, and my eyes hurt from this trip back in time. I think it's the colors. That said, I will leave you with these tasteful little numbers:


Man, that's sexy.
"

where i operate

123 days....>tick<....>tick<.....>tick<

only 123 days until spring training!!! we'll get 'em next year!!!

Halloween 2007

we went out and about around town last night for halloween!
i was Alice in Wonderland :) (of course!)

Rocktober

My BoSOX VS. my Colorado ROX!!! See ya'll in Boston! :)

best beatles covers?

As a huge Beatles fan, I was really looking forward to the long-delayed musical Across the Universe (starring Evan Rachel Wood, left). Sadly, my excitements were bruised yesterday upon reading Owen Gleiberman's review; he calls it a ''goofy, pompous, annoyingly boomer-myopic'' mess. (Ouch.) But he does say that one of the better things about the film is Bono, who "has presence" and apparently at one point sings "I Am the Walrus" (coo coo caah choo).

This got me thinking about my favorite Beatles covers ever. Speaking of Bono, I totally dig U2's live version of ''Helter Skelter,'' from Rattle & Hum. Also awesome in my book: Aretha Franklin's "The Long and Winding Road," Billy Bragg's "She's Leaving Home," Stevie Wonder's "We Can Work It Out," and, my all-time favorite Beatles cover (drumroll please, Ringo!) -- the Breeders' version of "Happiness Is a Warm Gun."

Anyways....still LOVED it!

Your turn...

"Oh, God, please don't let the baby crown with two outs, runners in scoring position and Varitek at the plate."

This is a funny little story I found on Fox Sports.com today.

Makes me proud to be a baseball fan!!! :)

Look out Arizona.....

We're heading your way Thursday!!!

GAME ON!

Winning Has Become A Habit

5:30 p.m. Kazuo Matsui hit a grand slam with two out in the fourth inning to give the Rockies a 6-3 lead and they never looked back as they beat the Phillies 10-5 in the National League Division Series on Thursday. Matsui also had a double and a triple as he drove in five RBI to help give Colorado a 2-0 lead in the best-of-five series. Game 3 is scheduled for 7:30 Saturday night at Coors Field.
Full Story

inside out

"
here a little sympathy, for you to waste on me
i know you're faking it, but that's okay
and i, dont't wanna drag it out
don't wanna bring you down
i never wanted it to end this way

even if i wanted to, i don't think that i'd get to to you
there's nothing i can say to you to make you feel alive again

here a little jealousy
i hope you think of me
hope you wonder where i sleep at night

cuz i feel like i'm inside out
you got me upside down
maybe i was holding on too tight

even if i wanted to, i don't think that i'd get to to you
there's nothing i can say to you to make you feel alive again

so don't you say goodbye to me
just turn your back away and leave
and if you're lucky i will be your last regret, your only friend

the two of us we dream like one, the two of us, the two of us
the two of us take breath like one, the two of us, the two of us

i guess that this is over now
i guess it's called a falling out
but everyday i'm learning how to make it through this life i'm in

even if i wanted to, i don't think that i'd get to to you
there's nothing i can say to you to make you feel alive again

so don't you say goodbye to me
just turn your back away and leave
and if you're lucky i will be your last regret, your only friend
"

one down....two to go!

ROX WIN!!!!



We're on our way!!!!

(philly beware!)

BOSTON!!!

boston pics coming sooooooooon.....

:)

THERE'S ONLY ONE OCTOBER.....

Colorado's Comeback Kids take NL wild card

BA

This is what BA looks like going to the Arcade Fire show at Red Rocks :)

for-people-that-just-wanna-go-and-jump

Phil. 1:1-11

Friday Feast

Appetizer:
Say there’s a book written about your life. Who would you want to narrate the audio version?


Soup:
Take the letters from your favorite kind of nut and write a sentence. (Example: Perhaps every avenue needs understanding today.)

Maybe All Change All Demands All Mistakes Interpret Actions

Salad:
If you could go back in time and spend one week in another decade, which decade would you choose?


Main Course:
Name a song that brings back memories for you.


Dessert:
Do you prefer to wash your hands in cold water or warm water?

cozy cozy

24

24 things I have learned within the past 23 years:

1. Never say never when it comes to: God, guys, and Guiness. You’ll always be proven wrong. Period.

2. Don’t make fun of those of the same sex. One day you will (or have) cry at a movie, lay in a tanning bed, gossip, walk down the isle (and be pretty darn excited about it), and be emotional. And yes, God has a good sense of humor, that’s why He made you a woman.

3. Comics are cool. No matter what anyone says.

4. Your dad is not perfect.

5. Your mom is not perfect.

6. YOU are not perfect.

7. Its more about quality than quantity...esp. when it comes to friends, dates, shoes, books, and yoga classes.

8. Yoga is hard.

9. Santa is not real. Shoot.

10. Prussian blue oil paint makes you speechless.

11. gasp! You like your curves!!! Who knew?!?!

12. Its ok to be alone...

13. Don’t put air in your tire thinking that “I’ll just visually estimate how much” is good enough. Gauages are good. Use them.

14. Forming an emotional attachment to an animal, such as a cat, and naming it after a bird in another language is not exactly normal. It's ok. Someone will understand.

15. The main artery (or is it a vein…) of a blue whale is so large that the child of the average age 3-4 could crawl through it.

16. You will strangely go from hating something to loving it, this includes sparkling/carbonated water, black licorice, tomatos, deep/bright pink, beer, opera music...

17. 2+2 does NOT equal 5... unless it’s a Radiohead song. (you’ve always been bad at math.)

18. Its not good to cook with your usual metal utensils. It makes them turn from shiny to a dull gray color within a slow period of time.

19. Home Shopping Network sucks.

20. Turkey bacon is awesome…but bacon cooked by a Brubaker is even more awesome.

21. Art does exist in ministry.

22. You pretty much look the same as you did when you were five. A lot of people have told you this. Deal with it. And yes, you still get carded.

23. Too much of something is usually not a good thing...this includes celery, green tea, and soy sauce.

24. Love is a verb, not a feeling. You found that Christ knew a lot about this.

what i don't want...

You know when you have way too many thoughts flowing around in your mind, therefore too many different emotions are running through your heart? Your mind just will not shut off. I’ve been having those type of days….

I am also finding that while having an overload of internal movement I’m having a hard time articulating myself when I speak with people. I’m having a hard time finding my words. People who know me know that I usually talk a lot, and conversation just flows like a river. Actually, I take that back. It flows like a raging river…maybe the Colorado river? (sometimes I just don’t shut up)… As a whole that’s still the case (at least in my thoughts)…but for the past couple weeks, I’ve kept my conversations pretty simple in comparison to the usual, and the reason why they’ve been simple is because I can’t quite do otherwise.

…while driving, I think I realized why I’m experiencing this.

I think I’m suppose to be listening to God more. I think there is something He wants to tell me, but I’m distracted.
So, I’m listening (and still being pretty awkward in conversation…being involuntarily stumped for words….)

…Anyways, side note: a couple days ago I was being encouraged to think otherwise about what we place value on…

What made me think of this was spending the night at a house where a close friend was house-sitting at…
This house was…well…it was freaking HUGE house. A Tuscan-style castle that I got lost in. I’m not even kidding.
I got lost, FIVE times.
Drove me crazy.
Anyways, after spending an evening and night in this house, one would think, “is this something I would want?” or, “would I desire this?”.
It’s strange, because, on a worldly standpoint, I could say, “sure, why not?” I’m talking about the babygrand piano. The large pillars that cascade down the hall. A fridge that you literally can walk in (its 3 times bigger than my closet).
The Bently in the garage.

When I left the house the next morning, everything had a sense of nostalgia. I was actually somewhat disoriented and disturbed.

Let me completely rephrase this into an analogy. For you men out there, you might understand this.
This house is like a beautiful woman.
She is your ideal woman physically, striking in every way possible.
You can’t take your eyes off her. Her presence is an overload, and you’re speechless when she walks in the room. And when she does walk in the room, every other woman wants to be her, and every man wants her.
She is the epitome of refinement and beauty.

*and then I realized, this house doesn’t have a library.

And then you realize, that physical beauty fades.
And she doesn’t have much of a personality.
And she doesn’t really care about God.

And you think, “huh. I don’t really want this.”

And that’s what I thought about the house.

Sometimes things that we consider of great value, keep us from experiencing other things that are even greater. I know this depends on the person, and that’s ok…but it even came down to the bed. For example, the bed in the master bedroom is a very, very, very nice bed. The comforter was so nice that nothing could be left on top of it (it was that expensive). I’m just thinking…that would be no good to me. When I think of the home I’d reside in by the time I’d have kids…I would hope that my bed would be nothing like this. I want my little kids running in the “parents” bedroom, excited on Christmas morning, jumping up and down top of the bed trying to wake their mom and dad up. I just don’t want to miss out on little things like that.
And, the sad thing is that this family who lives in this house (two little kids, perfect age for jumping up on their parents bed) will probably never experience something like that.

I know that seems small, but I don’t think it is. I’ve never marked huge events in my life as the pillars of significance (ie: graduation, job promotion, 21st birthday…you know, the things that society tells us its more important than the rest).
Its always been the relationships and little things that gets imbedded in the back of my mind and heart…

last night

“There is no judgement awaiting those who trust Him…” –john 3:18

Where there is trust there is influence.
Where there is influence there is change.
Where there is change, there is growth.

So then, trust=growth.

I’m growing a bit right now.

"umbrella tangled mess"

so graciously entrusted to me by Mr. Wonderful himself: Joshua Oothoudt...
i can now enjoy this beautiful mix created by Radio Paradise.

Disc One
1. beautiful way - beck
2. everything is broken - bob dylan
3. such great heights - iron & wine
4. saving grace - tom petty
5. as heaven is wide - garbage
6. red hill mining town - u2
7. bittersweet - big head todd and the monsters
8. head up high - black rebel motorcycle club
9. red light indicates doors are closed - arctic monkeys
10. cast your coat - calexico
11. the man who told everything - the doves
12. annie waits - ben folds
13. seven nation army - white stripes
14. the shining - badly drawn boy
15. 3 lil birds - bob marley

Disc Two
1. speed of sound - coldplay
2. traveling riverside band - led zeppelin
3. the wait - built to spill
4. so close, so far away - derek trucks band
5. whiskey blues - muddy waters
6. hello goodbye - beatles
7. today - smashing pumpkins
8. i'm waiting for the man - david bowie
9. tupelo honey - van morrison
10. mushaboom - feist
11. the devil's got my woman - taj mahal & ry cooder
12. who am i telling you - eric clapton & jj cale
13. ohio - crosby stills nash & young
14. the moment i said it - imogen heap
15. letter from america - the proclaimers
16. underdog - turin brakes

Disc Three
1. morning yearning - ben harper
2. run - snow patrol
3. rusted wheel - silversun pickups
4. st. simon - the shins
5. rockin' in the free world - pearl jam
6. lucky - radiohead
7. for us - pete yorn
8. everyday people - sly and the family stone
9. highway 61 revisited - bob dylan
10. jumping someone elses train - the cure
11. rhinoceraus - smashing pumpkins
12. from the rite to the rumble - arctic monkeys
13. the runner - kings of leon
14. secret heart - feist
15. bouncin' round the room - phish
16. i will follow - u2
17. it ain't me babe - johnny cash
18. the way we get by - spoon


:)

my new baby....

i have a new addition to my life:



...and i love her! :)

...and i am now part of the (red) revolution...

2 + 2 = 5 (the lukewarm)

I've recently revisited an old friend.


"hail to the thief"


i guess he's not that old (june 10, 2003 - i can still remember when and who gave it to me as a gift)....but it has been a while since i've let an album spin over and over...round and round
(with my ipod constantly on shuffle and all....)


point being:
"the lukewarm" is still my favorite on the album and my idea of personified genius.
(as much as a song can be personified.....i'd like to believe that all songs have the capability)


it is just amazing. yeah thom is a brilliant musician,
(no one would or could ever debate that)
and yeah he's a little weird,
(everyone should admit that)
but he's great...wonderful...uncompairable. i wish i knew more bigger and cooler words to adequately describe him more colorfully and beautifully.
(he does deserve it)


"i'll stay home forever
where two and two
always makes up five"

don't give away the end

7-8 months ago I looked at my age on myspace (haha, make fun of me, its fine)...and I thought, "hmm. 23. I'm really not that old. I'm actually really really young. I'm young! weird! yeah!!" (pump fist in the air as if its some accomplishment)
It actually hit me for the first time...all the assumptions of what a 23 year old/young adult is suppose to be doing (or have done) flew out the window.

You know, the typical list:
1)graduate from high school
2) graduate from college
3) get a job
4) get a boyfriend/girlfriend
5) that b/f or g/f turns into a fiance
6) get married
7) buy a house
8) have kids.....

I think those are basics that society gererally puts on us young folks....especially Christian young folks...got all those young marriages... (did i just use the word "Folks"?). Now I'm not saying that I DON'T want that stuff...I mean I have #'s 1 & 3 done....#2 is in process and....err....#4 is a little vague along with everything else below it, I'm just thinking...

I don't want a normal check list.

I don't think that what society tells us what's suppose to make you or me content is any guarentee for fullfillment (and thats ususally what people look for or bank on). Call me restless (because maybe I am)...but I want stability within movement. I want to be so close to Christ that wherever I go I see Him- and travel to another country and maybe paint in France for a year (partly because I want to learn French and be able to sing in French when i sing my first kid to sleep), or work on some HUGE sailing ship for a summer, and get my masters in another state and have dinner conversations with buddists and taoists from my classes, and blare Bob Dylan from my bakery and talk with people and artists as they walk in, backpack through Europe with my future husband (I will show him the window where Michelangelo lived...) while doing ministry in the most unexpected way possible....

What is neccessary for us to BE (not feel) content?...and does it resemble a check-list?
And, maybe that check-list is just formatted for how you or I are wired....or......do we "settle"?


So this Jimmy Eat World song...one part goes:
"You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine"

This makes me think of God...and that if I do "sit" forever and just "wait"...nothing will happen. (true) I guess I was driving down the freeway watching the orange lights flicker past thinking, ok, whats holding me back? And, the "Don't give away the end, the one thing that stays mine"...I don't want God to give the end away to me. I don't want to know. And, I have NO CLUE...but even more...I don't want to just "settle".
I think I've always been like that, trying not to "settle"...but at the same time, I've done worse. Sometimes (and lets say with my art and creativity) its not a matter of settling...but not doing anything at all.

I was just thinking.....

....and thinking that my list is nothing what I could assume.

this is the randomness that woke me up at 3:00 am....

...i've got some weird friends :)
(he's wearing a d-backs hat though....he can't be all bad)